I don't want to be skinny, just healthy!

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I weigh XXX, yep it has gotten that bad. Before I go on let me clarify that I have never been one of the people who can say they weighed in the double digits in their teenage years, or in the lower hundreds. I have always been a curvy girl. When I was toddler my mom had to buy me husky pants from the boy section because my butt and thighs were just that juicy. As I got older I struggled with being the biggest girl in my class, not being able to fit the clothes in the girls section, and finally having a body that men twice my age lusted after which garnered unwanted attention from men. From these experiences that affected me all different ways I learned some very conflicting lessons that affects me in my adulthood.

1. I would never be as good as the other girls.
2. I can't look like the other girls
3. Men are only interested in one thing when it comes to men.



These three things I learned turned into a complex that has allowed me to accept my current weight at XXX. My weight has turned into an excuse not to really go after what I want, because I don't measure up. Because I have told myself this for years each time I start a new weight loss program I unconsciously sabotage myself. Although I want to lose the weight badly I am scared of the girl who is locked inside of me waiting to have her chance in this world. I desperately want to to fit in a size XX. I want to be able to shop in boutiques, and look cute in just about anything, but most of all I want to be healthy. If I don't lose anything I want to know that I have made the choices that will prepare my body to help me reach my dreams. To help others you must help yourself first. How can I encourage you to be you best and have everything you want if I am not doing the same. I dare not be a hypocrite.

As I get older the more I see the repercussions of an unhealthy lifestyle. It is heart breaking when those excuses add up and you realize  that you can't change the heart disease, or diabetes that you have made the choice to have. So as I write this post I am making the choice to lead a healthy life style. I will no longer focus on the 10 pounds I need to loose but to adopt a healthy routine that I can follow that result in the healthiest life. I refuse to wake up one day with no choice. I choose healthy.

Here is my plan:

Eat breakfast, I never constantly eat breakfast. I always make an excuse that I don't have the time. Breakfast is very important in having a healthy lifestyle. It gives your body the energy to make it through the first part of the day. It also wakes up metabolism, and keeps it burning throughout the day.

Fall in love with H20, I have never been a water drinker. Sometimes I will make water my last option when I am thirsty. Now water will be the first choice. I am going to have to work myself up to eight glass a day.

Get moving, now I just go to work and come home. Once I'm home I flop down in my bed with the remote in my hand. What a bad habit. My energy level is down,while my stress level is extremely high which is even more of a reason to get moving.

After I get these three things under my belt I plan to add to the list so stay tuned. I will be also regularly updating you on my health journey and hope that you will join me no matter if you are over weight or not.

Tell me what you do to stay healthy?

Shameka